almighty / todopoderoso

I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY IF…

There will never be a sunrise

If you are not by my side admiring it

There is not going to be a sunset

If I am not in your arms crying it

There will never be a goodmorning

If I cannot share breakfast with you

There is not going to be a goodnight

If that kiss does not come from your lips

There will ever be a smile on me

If it is not you the one who makes my lips spread

There is not going to be real tears rolling down

If it is not you the one who gives them birth

There will never be a perfect day

If I cannot see you sleeping for hours

There is not going to be a perfect day

If I cannot listen to your voice forever

There will never be a beautiful song

If my ears cannot share it with yours

There is not going to be a beauty

If I cannot see your…

There is not going to be a complete person in me

If I do not have my second half…

If I don’t have you…

May 18^th 2001

PLEASE

Sun, please do never stop shining

I need you to keep on smiling my life a bit longer

Rain, please do never stop falling

I need you to keep on washing away my pain and sorrow

Wind, please do never stop blowing

I need you to keep on whispering in my ears

River, please do never stop flowing

I need you to keep on singing this love song to me

Bird, please do never stop flying

I need you to go on showing me that freedom is

Star, please do never stop twinkling

I need you to go on making the night worth the living

Love, please do never stop being

I need you to go on giving me a reason to live, love and cry…

Queer

What’s so funny about this life

If it always leads to suffering

What’s so great about this city

If it anyway looks dirty

Live life as it comes,

Just enjoy the moment

Don’t you worry about the things you have

Cos He knows why He gave you this

What’s so glorious about love

If you always end up crying

What’s so terrible about crying

If you cry, you’ve felt the love

Live life as it comes

Just enjoy the moment

Don’t you worry about the things you have

Cos He knows why He gave you this

What’s so weird about being queer

If you are a person in the end

What’s so odd about being straight

If you are a person either way

Live life as it comes

Just enjoy the moment

Don’t you worry about the things you have

Cos He knows why He gave you this

What’s so happy about smiling

If a smile just hides a crying

What’s so sad about a weeping day

If that weep just covers love

(april 2^nd 2001)

SANDCASTLE

I am not the most important person under the sun.

I know, I am neither a king nor a queen.

But you, you are a very important person under my sun.

You are the little king in my sandcastle

I know all that and that’s why

I ask you not to leave me

I beg you not to run away

I know all that and that’s why…

I am not the right person to be carrying guns.

The reason why my heart’s not strong or weak.

But you, you have two powerful weapons, love.

You possess the deepest eyes I have ever seen.

I know all that and that’s why

I hope we see each other again

I hope the Lord looks after you

I know all that and that’s why…

Because you are gorgeous

Because you are a perfect being

I know all, that’s why I am alive.

(august 4^th, 2001 one of the saddest days of my life…)

Tape one and two:

he once said ‘i think i’m in love with you’

and all I can tell him now is, i was and i still am in love with him

he then said ‘i was born to make you happy’

and I wonder… does this happiness involve so many tears?

or am i still longing for that never-coming happiness

he once told me ‘your world I all yellow’

but my world is all autumnly dark now

he then told me ‘it was all because of you’

but i do think it was all about and because of us

it came a time when he named me ‘lovefool’

and what other name can you give someone

who loves being fooled by him?

we reached a time and he said to me ‘it’s love’

but time passed and it all changed

it was not longer love for him, it was only for me

and he can say it ‘doesn’t really matter’

well, it does matter to me, I still care about him

i think I am still in love with him

and he sang to me ‘i turn to you’

like a flower leaning towards the sun

but now all i can see is him dancing away from me

he went ‘God must have spent a little more time on you’

but if He did so, He made a mistake…

He did not want me to be happy though

he goes ‘my love is your love’

but I do not think we still have the same concept

of the word, not between him and me.

he went ‘i belong to you’

and if he really did once I will always regret

not being able to keep him by my side

he goes ‘can’t take my eyes off of you’

well, i do not know him, but i could not

i spent 15 nights only watching him sleep

he wrote ‘(your drive me) crazy’

but I am still a fortune’s fool

since i could never feel that craziness

he promised it is ‘all for you’

but that all meant nothingness

and they had never told me about it

he wrote, i want you ‘here with me’

he had me, but the worst is

was it what he really wanted in life?

he promised me you can ‘say what you want’

but what i wanted was banned

I wanted to shout ‘i love you’

he sang ‘don’t cry for me argentina’

but argentina did cry for him

and i think it would cry a thousand more for him

he was wondering ‘are you that somebody?’

but he refused to find out

he did not believe in me, or did not want to

he was singing ‘i want you back’

and when he had me back

he did not allow me to have him back

he kept on wondering if it was all ‘new’

and of course i was going to be new there

but he preferred the everyday people instead

(2001)

The Leaf

The tree is there,

Under a grey sky

The leaf remains there,

Fighting against the winds.

It is the last leaf of the Autumn tree.

It is the last spark of hope in my life.

Through your veins,

The sap I need runs

In your soul and heart,

The strength to remain

It is the last spark of hope in my life.

It is the last leaf of the Autumn tree.

The leaf in its last filament

Sways uncertainly pleading life

My life goes through days

Hazily to reach your light

2001

Thought

It's raining again in my heart. It is making it all wet through and vulnerable to the changes of season when birds start flying away. But I do not want my bird to fly away from me though I cannot and I don't want to trap my wild bird in my grasp. No, I will not do it unless my gorgeous little wild bird wants to nest in the palms of my hands. It is not a game only I have to play, this is a game for two. And both decisions must be respected, so I have made up my mind but I do not think I am as wild as my little bird is... I am afraid, I am afraid northern summer finds me alone and unloved.

This dangerous game of love we play, we think we win only to lose. I want to disagree, I want not to lose, not this time. Why can't I be the exception to this rule?

(2001)

Why...

Why should you keep me so low?

Why should you paint a smile on me?

Why should you make me cry?

You came to me so suddenly

and as suddenly you were gone

You looke at me so sweetly

and as sweetly you said goodbye

Why should you do this to me?

Why should you keep me so low?

Why should you paint a smile on me?

Why should you make me cry?

You talked to me beautifully

and as beautifully you broke my heart

You walked by me so friendly

and as friendly you stole my soul.

Why should I suffer this?

Why should I stay low?

Why should I smile?

Why should I cry?

Maybe because I love you....

(2001)

You are the one I once liked

and now you are not here

You are the one to keep

and now you are not here

You are the rising sun

and you are not now here

You are the falling rain

and you are not now here

You are the shiny rainbow

and now you are not with me

You are the blossoming rose

and now you are not with me

You are the eyes I looked for

and now you are far away

You are the voice to hear

and now you are far away

And I still wonder why

(2001)

Flameless heart

So when did you come into my heart?

So when did you steal my fragile soul?

So when did you blow my breath to end?

So when...

So why did you light my flameless heart?

So why did you feed my so spinny mind?

So why did you fasten my beats?

So why...

So what shall I name you?

So what is this between you and me?

So what have I got to do next?

So what...

So how did you manage to brighten me?

So how did you thunder my eyes?

So how did you sweeten my days?

So how...

So where do I post my love now?

So where do I sleep on Friday night?

So where will the telephone ring today?

So where...

Tell me when, and why, and what, and how, and where to fly.

Tell me where, and when, and why, and what, and how I live after you.

Tell me how, and where, and when, and why, and what I'll drink.

Tell me what, and how, and where, and when, and why you danced away.

Tell me why, and what, and how, and where, and when you will be back.

I don´t want to get hurt (by Toto)

Para todos esos Roxette fans que siempre soñaron con un video de I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT... y en esta historia... ;)

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